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Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Creative Exploration with an update/venting

Hello all!
I have another creative exploration for you! But before we get to that I also want to say Ch. 10 of the Chief's Wife is up Hurray! Click here to check it out http://www.booksie.com/religion_and_spirituality/novel/biancajeane/the-chiefs-wife/chapter/10
Now for the venting...is anyone else being forced to change their blogspot because Google says so. Am I the only one sick and tired of all these corporations changing things that are already working fine to me? First Facebook now blogspot. If I don't like the changes I may transfer my blog to wordpress. Just a forwarning...I mean goodness gracious! Leave it alone please. I wish they'd ask and give us users a choice.
Ok done with that now one to the creative exploration. This is a No Sew Fleece Double layer blanket tutorial. You can find a lot of these already on youtube, but I decided to do a tutorial anyway : ) so check out the video and enjoy a nice and cheap way to make a fabulous blanket!



Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

I Spy Curls: Going Natural

So I've decided to transition and guess what?! I spy curls and I like them : ). Although it's only been about 3 months and I have already contemplated getting a relaxer due to the long and strenous process of coobing my hair after washing it the other night...I loved seeing my curls. So I figure it's worth it.

Unsurprisingly, I have wanted to "go natural" since I got saved. That's when I really searched youtue and got into hair. Because if I could no longer trim and cut it, I had better take care of it lol. But I found women who were transitioning and I was fasinated with their curls. I talked to a lot of black women in my church and some said it was a hard but rewarding journey and others said it was nearly impossible because your hair would break off.

I batteld with wanting to maintain my length(which is the longest it's ever been) and starting on a journey I know will result in breakage, more hard work, and a high possibility of me looking not so pretty for a while. But you know, I am ready for breakage. I actually hope it will break out...my prayers to God have been "Lord please let my natural hair get long enough so I can put it in a bun or something. And then let my relaxed hair break off" lol. Does it work like that? Who knows. We'll see lol. But even if I cannot put it into a bun, I will suffer with braids (ugh-long story) and other things. I do not want weaves (we have a bad history) so the goal is to transition with my hair.

Wish me luck and keep me and my hair in your prayers!
Pictures will be arriving soon.
-Bianca

Creative Exploration: Jet Pack Costume

VBS was awhile ago, but I wanted this to be the first post of my "creative explorations" as I have deemed them. Be prepared to see many many more. I found I like to create and make things :D (and it's cheaper). So I made two different costumes, but liked this one the best. And it seemed everyone liked this one the best so I'll share how I made it.

First I went to this site and saw how she made it. Mine is a cheaper, less intense version lol

Materials This is just what I used, feel free to substitute:

-Hot Glue gun & glue sticks - Aluminum foil -Construction paper

-Two water bottles and caps - 2 toilet & 2 paper towel roll (4 total)


-Two pieces of felt ( for straps) -Cereal (or in my case Cheese it) Box





I wasn't planning on making a tutorial when I made it, so I just have the finished results. BUT since several people asked how I made it, I figured I'd do a tutorial (just in case people need it?) and so here goes my instructions.

1. Wrap Cheese it Box (or whatever box you have), water bottle, toilet and paper towel rolls in aluminum foil. The best way is to hot glue the water bottle nozzle into the paper towel roll and then wrap the aluminum around both.

2. Hot glue your felt straps to the now covered box. (Make sure the straps wil fit your arm BEFORE cutting them).

3. Hot glue the water bottle and paper towel and toilet paper rolls onto the front of the box (Side opposite your straps).

4.Hot glue bottle caps (these are your buttons).

5. Cut out construction paper. I chose orange and red and glue that to the inside of the bottom of the toilet paper roll. This is your fire.

Your done! Not the best instructions, but next time I make something, I'll make a video...it's easier for me to show you.

(Me looking worn out at break lol) I was tired! Excuse the expression

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Speaking My Heart

So, as you can see I decided to change the blog. No new address for me...but I did change the background and other things. Prepare to see new things on here...I'm hoping to post outfits I LOVE, hairstyles and updates. : DD
Here something that caught my attention the first time I heard it. Air 1 has this featured as the free song of the week so take advantage of it (I know I did). Below is a youtube video of the band Unspoken performing this. He so eloquently explains what initially drew me to this song. You mess up and sometimes you think you'll never be able to change. But you don't change you. God changes you. Even knowing this, I myself have and am having a hard time changing and letting some things go. I know I need to and as of now I'm in transition. Just as he states, it takes a minute to realize you gotta change and then another second or two to actually make that thought a reality. I'm there right now. And it doesn't hurt that his voice is amazing. Love it. You can feel the message there and it's so soulful. If Unspoken ever reads my meager blog, Thank you for this song and singing it the way God meant for this song to be sung.
Without further ado...
Sorry but the link will have to suffice. I cannot figure out the new youtube embed video. Yay to changes no one can figure out. (sorry, just frustrated that these people cannont leave things alone and working.) If you know how to embed the new way please help!

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Update

Wow time flies...it really really does. Junior year of college is finished. I am proud of myself : DD I got 4 A's and 1 C. I am happy about that C, because it was a really hard class and as much as I would have liked a B, I knew when I got my midterm I was destined to get a C in that class. But I overloaded last quarter 28 units to be exact, I worked, and did a sunday school(although I took a step back), I planned a bridal shower, attended a wedding, went to Bridal expos (the things we do for friends) and despite all that I am proud of my 4 A's. Just saying it brings a smile. Thank you Lord for my ability to stay focused on school.

But I am 21, a rising senior (HURRAY!!!) in college. I have two more years until I am able to teach, and I am exited. Sometimes it just hits you, wow I'm a woman. I know I've lawfully been a woman since 18, but it just seems like I am a woman now. No longer a girl.

I am transitioning in life. I feel it. God is moving me in a new direction. I feel like I'm starting brand new...even though I was saved 3 years ago. I am transitioning in life and excitingly with my hair (moew news and pictures with that later). I have an urge to start a different blog. I don't know if I will yet...but that's what I want to do. It'll still be the same rambling me...but what is the need? Can't I just revamp this one. I suppose, but I want to do something different. Who knows what it will be.

For people who want an update to my novel, it's a'comin. I am debating a couple things, but never fear,  I am still writing. Last school year was hectic. But you will get some chapters out of me! Next time I write a novel, I think I'll wait until I'm done to post lol.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Meg, Megy, the Megster and everything else she likes to be called

Meaghan and I

So I'm sitting in my car on week 9 of the quarter (HURRAY!) teary-eyed (uh-oh) because it just now hit me that my best friend is moving away.

Far Far Far away. Across the world away! No I'm dramatizing...she's moving to Maryland. Yay and Boo. Yay because I have a free place to stay in a place that charges ransom for hotels. Boo because although I'm cheap and like the idea of a free place to stay, I like the idea of calling my best bud up and going shopping better.

We've been through a lot. You hear preachers say that when you get saved you'll probably have to distance yourself from your old friends in your pre-saved life. But with me it was the opposite. If anything, me moving away to Denver and getting saved brought us closer. So close that I (much to my protest) was the best maid at her beautiful wedding.

She was the main friend who worried about me in Denver, who had her mom write a check so I could get my cap and gown for graduation, and consoled me when I complained and cried about leaving my life in California.

She was my friend back in high school who waited for me everyday after snack and break to walk to class. She endured my loudness and big bear hugs.

Graduation. Class of '09 is still the best!
She has endured my weak moments, my selfish moments, my dorky  moments, my forgetful moments, my Bianca moments, my depressed moments, my angry moments, complaining moments and much much more lol. Needless to stay somehow someway she has stuck around for the past 5-6 years.

But now she's leaving at 2:05 to be exact and I'm contemplating ditching class and stuffing myself into her suitcase. Somehow I don't think her new Husband would appreciate that much so I am stuck writing my feelings to the world of 3 followers about how great and awesome my friend is and how much I'll miss her.

I will end this on a happy and bright note though. There is one great thing about her moving to Maryland. I have a free place to stay and a personal tour guide! : DD

So see I have lost nothing. I have gained a lot more.


Love you Meaghan!



At her wedding

Friday, March 23, 2012

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Choosing God's Best Series

Being Apostolic Pentecostal is wayyy different than being in the world. The culture is very different from what I was use to in the world and I've adjusted. One of the topics is marriage. Many Many Many women my age, I'd say from 16 on up wonder about God's plan in their life. Who they are going to marry? And if they will get married at all. I'll tell you it's not easy being single. Period. No matter if you're in the church or the world. And it's even harder to have a good godly relationship. In my meager two years in the church it seems I personally can never find my fit. OR not find (because God does that) I'll say I'm never approached by my fit. Either the personality doesn't match, or the personality matches perfectly BUT they are not in church good, and then you have the guys that aren't in church at all but still want to go out with you. And it's all tempting. It's really really tempting to settle. BUT ladies that's why you need to know what you want. If I didn't have my list of qualities or well say if I didn't have my standards I defiantly would have gone out with a couple of the aforementioned guys. Because most of them met my in the world standards-tall, handsome, funny, sweet, etc. Now that I'm in church though my standards have changed. Now at the top of the list above all else he must be godly. Ladies the man is the head of your household. I want a husband that will pray before making any decision. If I have to follow him, he better be following the Lords leading otherwise, I'm not going anywhere... but back to the point. In the world I would have settled for these guys, but now i won't. I can't.

I found this great series by a woman named Barbra Willoughby on youtube about a year ago and it truly helped me. I hope it helps you too. I wanted to send her a thank you and tell her how much it helped me, but I found that she had passed away. I will defiantly be sending a note to her family though. She is phenomenal and you can tell she was a God fearing and centered woman.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Heart Bursting

I've always known I've wanted to be a teacher. Ever since I can remember. My grammy says I've known since kindergarten. So it may seem weird that I always had to think hard as to why I've wanted to teach. It was just innate. Something so apart of me. In college and scholarship essays I always wrote about wanting to impact lives, make a difference in the world, open minds, and give knowldge and with knowledge power to people who need and wil use it most. Yes those are reasons why I want to be a teacher, but it just seemed that that wasn't it. Well God helped me find my answer to why and guess what...I can't explain it lol.

But for the purpose of this blog, I will try. I was teaching sunday school and we were doing a little game that taught on everyone getting the holy ghost. The lesson was on Cornelius getting the Holy Ghost and Peter's dream. The game is played like "Who took the cookie from the cookie jar?" and i made up a song that goes as follows:

Everyone starts the rhythm and says " Cornelius prayed and peter had a dream. (Bob) Who can get the Holy Ghost only Jews?"

Bob:" No I can get the holy ghost just like you!"
The kids go around and call on each other and ask who can get the holy ghost. I was pleased that the kids liked it and even more pleased that they got the message behind it. When I asked" So what was the point of this game?" One kid answered, " That everyone can get the holy ghost"
Then I felt it. Pressure built in my heart, the pressure rose and rose until my heart burst with excitement. I would have been worried of a heart attack if I hadn't of been so happy. I was so proud, exicted, and happy in that moment that not only did they get the message, but liked the game. I squeaked , "That's right! I'm so proud of you! Everyone can get the holy ghost." And of course they looked at me wierd. But secretly they were happy I was so proud. And then that's when it hit me. That heart burst is why I want to be a teacher. Because I'm addicted to that feeling and want to feel it for as long as I live. I want students to enjoy learning but get the main message and I want to be that person that teaches them new things or more plainly how to discover. But mostly I want to teach because it's heart bursting : D

Monday, January 23, 2012

If Candace Never Said...

(Candace and I being goofy at school shortly after I had converted)


We had a preacher yesterday night who was phenomenal. He preached on the topic of evangelizing and although my pastor has been talking about evangelism and all, it never struck me as hard as it did with this preacher. When I first started Blue Bomber, I was timid and shy (although that does not describe my personality). I didn't want to be a bother or bug anyone. But when I did outreach, all that went out the window and who cared about bothering someone, there soul was at stake. Now that I have been in the classroom doing Sunday school, it seems I've reverted back to that shy and timid self. Last night woke me up and shook me because shy and timid won't save souls.

I started thinking about Candace who ministered and witnessed to me. She went out on a limb, she had been rejected before (I was her first successful soul). And yet was she shy? Shy! Candace! Ha! Ridiculous lol. No she wasn't. God placed in my head something I had never thought of before...

If Candace never said anything about Jesus, baptism, and the holy ghost, I still would be lost. I would probably still be depressed and suicidal. I might have lost my virginity and gotten into who knows what.

If Candace never said, "Bianca do you know about the Holy Ghost?" I would have never known God in the capacity that I know him or felt his love like I feel. I would have never meet the wonderful people at my church in Denver and San Jose.

If Candace had never said anything about God and took that risk, I would not have been able to encourage my mom when she had her stroke and got her cancer. I would not have known how to pray and witness to her. I would never have felt God's presence and I would still feel so alone in this world. Just as I felt before I met Candace and she opened her mouth and spoke the words God wanted her to. She spoke words that changed my life forever and as I write this tears are in my eyes because I am so grateful that Candace was not like me and never said anything. She was not scared and she spoke life and was the light in my life.

After God revealed all this to me, I felt so ashamed. How dare I refuse and keep this wonderful gift. Merely two years ago, I could care a less who heard and what people thought. Who cared if they were "bothered" or if I "bugged" them. Oh God please forgive me. How many faces have I passed, people have I talked to that I should have and could have told. I am deeply sorrowful. I just pray that my merciful God will forgive me for ignoring His will. For keeping silent when I had no right. I had won a soul once, but they fell away and I became discouraged. But I can't let that be an excuse I hide behind. Candace didn't stop because someone fell away and neither will I. Thank You Lord for preachers who preach Your will. Thank you for waking me up and helping me realize that I speak life to this dead world. You put me where I am for a reason. If Candace never said, than none of this would be. But she did say. She did speak and so will I.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

The DEBUT IS HERE! =D

You lucky people are the first to experience and read my brand new novel! *And the crowd goes wild!! Woooohoooo* Ok so the plan is to post a chapter every FRIDAY on www.booksie.com/biancajeane starting this Friday Jan. 6th. I just want feedback and to gauge how people like my writing. What I need to tweak and so forth. I feel like my two loyal followers on this blog should be the first to see it. I'm nervous about showing my writing - after all I am revealing a very vulnerable piece of myself. I love my writing and I want everyone to love it too....but this is reality and so I'll take all the love i can get lol. Anywho, below is first chapter. I won't post every chapter here, you'll have to go to my booksie account for that. But please read and comment (whether here or on booksie). I NEED FEEDBACK!! Oh and another thing stealing is against the law and a sin, so don't do it. But Booksie copy writes it for me so HA!

The Chief's Wife

Summary: Set just after Christ died in 40 A.D. Mali is chosen as the bride for Mysou, the new Chief of their tribe. Little does she know that she will have to keep his secrets to protect their lives and the lives of their family. Join her in her journey as she discovers that the secret she must keep may just give her life instead of death.

Chapter 1 40 A.D.

I reached down into the small lake grabbing the large jug. Extra water sloshed out, I would not have to make two trips this time. I grimaced struggling to balance the heavy weight atop my head. Once the jug sat perfectly still I slowly began to walk back to the village. As I walked towards my hut, grandmothers sewed seal skin to make clothes while watching small children weave themselves in and out of the clothes handing up to dry. Some mothers squatted in the shade grounding wheat with stones talking amongst themselves while others worked in the garden. All the men of the village-young and old- gathered for the daily clan meeting in the meeting hut. There the young hunters decided where to hunt that day and today they would decide-

“Mali!” my daze broke as a mocha-hued girl ran towards me her curly brown hair flying in her wake. “Mali, come come!” Rusta grabbed my arm and dragged me towards my hut. “Empty your jug! Hurry! It’s almost time! The men have gathered!” I bent to empty my jug into the large water skin and rushed away with her smiling.

“I know Rusta, today is the day. Who do you think they will pick? If it is Rasad he will surely pick you! And you my best friend shall be the new chief’s wife!” We both squealed.

“Ah but what if Ecko is picked,” she sighed, “then you my best friend will be the new chiefs wife for he will surely pick you.” We both laughed at our silliness knowing our long time crushes had just been introduced into manhood and would not be picked. Rusta and I reached the meeting hut exchanging smiling glances as we noticed most of the women in the tribe were gathered around the outer walls of the hut. Although no woman could enter the clan meeting we had our own way of knowing what was transpiring for many of the young unmarried women stood with their ears pressed against the wall and they would announce to the rest of us what the men said.

“What are they saying?” Mama Kiqi inquired. She was the healer and baby deliverer of the tribe. Her brown eyes frowned towards the walls as her large frame squeezed through the women.

Teku turned her head and whispered, “Only where they are hunting. Nothing good yet.” The elder women nodded, some clucked their tongues impatiently; Mama Kiqi merely shook her graying hair out of her eyes muttering “Men!” We stood waiting impatiently for the men to begin voting on a new chief. Soon the young women with their ears against the walls perked up,

“They are voting!” Teku whispered excitedly. The women leaned towards the hut in expectation. Whoever was picked would affect the women immediately. The new chief would have to pick a wife and the women would have to help cook for the wedding feast, sew the bridal garment, and make the walls for the new chief’s hut as well as help the chief’s mother cook for the chief’s feast.

“My husband told me he would pick Evic.” One woman whispered. A shiver ran down my spine. This woman always came outside her hut with bruises upon her body. I knew her husband would choose Evic as chief. Evic was mean and ruthless. He and my brother had gotten into many fights because Evic constantly bullied me. Most of the women hated Evic because he always tried to ruin the virgins and take other men’s wives. I pitied the woman he would chose as his wife and silently prayed to the god of protection that the men would not choose him. Mama Kiqi clucked her tongue, “The men will not choose him. He’s too angry and irrational.”

“My husband confessed he’d vote for Mysou.” I knew of Mysou. He was my brother’s best friend. Rusta leaned over and whispered in my ear. “What do you know of Mysou?” I thought and replied, “Not much. He is very quiet and never talks to me or my mother when he comes to our hut. I think he ignores women. But my brother likes him and I’d choose anyone as chief before Evic.” Rusta nodded her agreement.

Suddenly the doors opened. All the women turned in surprise as the men peered at us with amused expressions. “Well well,” Chief Komo’s wide face smiled at us, “What shall we do with these women of ours Nastor?” I looked all the men over, cheeks burning with shame. It did not seem like they were mad. In fact it seemed they found our embarrassment entertaining- all except for Evic who was rolling his eyes sand tapping his foot impatiently. Nastor- my papa- grinned and stated, “I guess we should announce the new chief. May the elders approach.”

All the elders approached and Papa Kiqi-Mama Kiqi’s husband- began softly, “According to the majority vote, it is with great pleasure I announce Mysou as the new chief.” Silence permeated the women. It was not that no one wanted Mysou as chief; it was just that none of the women knew him well. I looked at Mama Kiqi for guidance; it seemed she always knew what to do. She glanced from her husband to our new chief and smiled. She then turned and found his mother-Vami- and said the only words that could relieve the shocked silence, “Congratulations!” Soon all the women surrounded Vami, giving her hugs and offering their congratulations. The excited chatter of plans for the Chief’s Feast buzzed through the air. I watched as all the young hunters, except Mysou, left for the day and noticed Evic’s darkened expression. Our new chief left with Chief Komo and Papa to deliberate over who would suit as a wife for Mysou.

“Who do you think he will choose?” Rusta sighed as she sewed two seal skins together for the wall of the new chief’s hut. “Rusta I doubt he’ll pick one of us. Teku is probably the best choice. She is pretty, well-mannered, and the eldest of the unmarried girls.” A shadow fell upon my own needle work.

“Thank you Mali, but I am not so sure.” Teku sighed heavily handing us our noon meal. “ He will choose who he likes and no one knows who he likes because he never talks to any of the women.”

“Well, I hope he chooses you.” I said, “You deserve it.” I began eating my food. Teku stared at me teary-eyed ,” Mali, you have such a sweet spirit.” Abruptly she turned and walked away. I looked at Rusta for an explanation but she merely shrugged and continued eating.

That night Mama and I set the table quickly chatting about Vami’s choices of food for the Chief’s Feast. “According to Vami,” Mama was saying, “ Mysou’s favorite dish is grilled whale and so although it will be difficult she wants the hunters to catch a whale and us to cook it.” I thought about how difficult and dangerous it was to catch a whale. Our men rarely spotted one close enough to kill and catching the huge creature took at least twelve of our strongest hunters. I remembered that Teku’s father had died trying to catch a whale. “ But Mama, we only have one more day. It won’t be possible!” I exclaimed.

“Well from what Vami said, Mysou told her the same thing but she is determined. But the women are fixing up a seal in case the hunters do not sight a whale in time.” Mama fell silent and I knew she heard the men outside. I longed to race to Papa and have him give me a bear hug, but I was no longer a little girl. I had my first bleeding two years ago although I still longed to do what little girls could do. Matesh-my older brother- and Papa entered our hut. Papa walked over to Mama and gave her a quick peck on the cheek then he eyed me and gave a soft squeeze on my shoulder. I smiled moving to put the large leaves on the table and began putting the food on the leaves. For Papa it was a pleasure to serve him. I loved Papa so much and I hoped my husband would be as affectionate as Papa was to Mama. The men sat down and Mama and I followed. “So Nastor,” Mama began, “any clue as to who Mysou has picked?” Papa looked up and grinned winking at me.
“ If I tell you it’ll ruin the Chief’s Feast. The whole town will know by the end of the night.” Matesh laughed and I smiled noticing Mama’s pout, “I did not ask who. I asked for a clue.” She prodded. Papa swallowed the food in his mouth, “Well we know her very well, and she is sweet, smart, and pretty. The only problem is her Papa has not given permission yet.” Mama thought long and hard but soon gave up shouting exasperated, “That could be anyone!” Papa gave a knowing chuckle and said, “Exactly.” The whole table erupted in laughter. “Oh you!” Mama teased. “Well Mama it seems we’ll have to wait until tomorrow.” I laughed.

The next day hummed with anticipation. The men had yet to mutter a word. Even Mama Kiqi did not know Mysou’s choice. Rusta and I busied ourselves by adding decoration to the seal skin. It was going to be a lovely hut wall. We had added a wave pattern. Once we were done we hung the finished seal skin on the wood creating a wall for the hut. Our next assignment was to clean the inside of the hut. “Err” Rusta growled as we swept the mat that covered the huts dirt floor. “It is so hard to decorate and clean this place when you can’t imagine who will be living in it. The waiting is killing me!” I laughed.

“ I think it’s killing every woman in the tribe. Even Mama Kiqi is clueless.” Rusta shook her head.

“ Only Mysou could keep such a secret, he never talked to anyone anyways! I bet only Chief Komo and your papa know. But you know what, Mysou isn’t even chief yet and he’s causing such an uproar. That’s exactly it! He’s causing an uproar without uttering a word!” She stopped sweeping and glanced at me, “Maybe he’ll be a great chief after all.” We both dissipated into laughter at the irony of it all.

“You know what Rusta. You are right!” I agreed. If a man could grab our attention without uttering a single word I wondered what it would be like when he said something. When we were done sweeping, Rusta’s Mama told Rusta she needed to do laundry and Mama Kiqi assigned me to stuff the grass mattress and place the bear skin cover over the bed. “There” I breathed a sigh of relief. “ Mama Kiqi” I called, “The bed is done!” Mama Kiqi appeared into the small area that was separated by hanging string. “Very good Mali, but I must disagree. It is not done.” She disappeared for a moment and I blushed as she returned with a handful of flowers. She spread the flowers across the bed and recited the ancient chants that made a couple fruitful. “ No blushing Mali. A bed is nothing to be ashamed of.” She laughed and looked triumphant. “ Alright now it is done.” I giggled and applauded her wonderful work. “ Ok Mali time to freshen up for the feast. Thank you for the help, now run along.” I gave her a hug and left for my own hut.

As soon as I reached my hut I headed for my sleeping place. Matesh and I shared a bed but he was still out hunting and I treasured the moments I had the bed to myself. I spread my limbs across the huge mattress and fell asleep.

“Tsk Tsk Mali! None of that young lady! We must go!” Rusta shook me awake. “Come! Hurry! Wash up, put on clothes and lets go. I will not be late.” She rattled as I sleepily arose blinking. “ I have been waiting since Chief Komo announced retirement for this and you will not make me miss it.” She nagged handing me a skirt.” Here put this on. Your shirt will have to do and wash! Hurry Mali!”

“Alright Rusta” I snapped, “By the gods, I swear you are so much like Mama.” I walked over to the water skin and washed my face. Then I put my long hair into a bun. “ See? I’m ready.” Rusta yanked me by the arm out of my hut and to the meeting hut gushing.

“ I can’t wait! I can’t wait! Oh! We are five steps away…act mature Mali act mature!” I rolled my eyes heavenward, “ I’m not the one who needs to calm down.” The meeting hut was alive with chatter and all the men and women of the tribe were dressed in their best. I looked around noticing the different outfits:

Teku was adorned in our islands famous bird feathers. Mama Kiqi wore a nice shell skirt and Rusta’s older sister Natia was cloaked in a seal pattern dress. Even Rusta wore a beautiful whale skirt that had clay beads hanging from string. I looked down at myself, grateful Rusta had chosen my best and favorite skirt. It was made of white rabbit fur and Mama had painted black birds and rabbits across it. It was my most treasured possession for I had received it when I became a woman. I blushed as I pictured my plain seal skin shirt and my rushed high bun forcing the tears away. Rusta patted me on the back, “None of that Mali, you look beautiful. Simple works in your favor. It brings out your beautiful eyes.” I smiled, “Rusta you must not lie, but thank you. You are such a good friend.”

“Well, good friend or not I must go sit with my family. Ah Mali, I cannot wait! See you after!” She gave me a quick hug and walked to sit beside her Mama. I searched for my own family checking the different clusters spread about the long and narrow hut. “Excuse us.” A father said from behind me. I whirled around and noticed I was blocking the entrance.”Sorry!” I quickly moved as they nodded their thanks. I resumed my search now frantically eyeing every family. Where was mine? I thought “ I believe they are over there.” A deep voice stated. I jumped to find Mysou standing next to me. His brown eyes flicking across my face and then towards the direction of my family.

“Oh Mysou! I mean Chief Mysou…I…oh thank you.” I muttered looking down. Chief Komo liked people to look at him but some chiefs felt it a dishonor and preferred you look down while in their presence. “You may look at me.” Mysou smiled. I could hear the amusement in his voice, “and I believe it is still Mysou.” I smiled at his teasing, peering up. “ I think they want you over there.” He nodded towards my beckoning mother. I laughed, “Yes.” I began walking away and turned to say, “Congratulations.” Then I made my way through the clusters of families taking my seat beside Mama. Then a thought made me pause. Mysou, the man who never talked to women had just talked to me. My eyes widened and I caught his smiling gaze. My eyes met Papa’s and he nodded. Mama noticed this transaction, leaned into my ear and whispered, “ I think I know who Mysou has chosen.” I nodded dumb-founded. I think I did too and I hoped it not to be true.

-Stay Tuned!
Bianca